My dictionary gives several meanings of the word metamorphosis. Some meanings are zoological, others downright witchy and spooky but the one I singled out means a complete change of character, appearance, etc.
I’m starting to get uncomfortable with my situations and a lot of other aspects in my life. I believe discomfort is not a bad thing because it means it is time for me to grow as a person – to become a better me. I still love my life, my family and all the things that matter to me, and that will never change, but I feel like I’m not living at my optimum. Hence the need for metamorphosis.
I am opening myself to a life shift like a butterfly does. Remember your biology lessons? Butterflies go through a life cycle known as complete metamorphosis. The stages of their life cycle include: egg, larva, pupa, and adult.
It is not an easy process. Sometimes I doubt my ability to go through it. And most difficult for me is the patience to go through it. I wish it were like instant coffee or pesa pap but it is not. This however should not and is not a deterrence. Like a butterfly, I will not go into a cocoon.
Some may wonder why I didn’t go through the process in January, the proverbial renewal month. But I’m no ordinary girl, you knooow! And sometimes, metamorphosis just happens to you. This is the time that I feel is right for me. This is the time time that somehow I am aligning to resources and people to help and guide me through the process. This is the time when the discomfort feels right. This is it.
|Kenya, a land of butterflies. A photo I took at the Kenya National Museum.|